Monday, March 27, 2006

Self-Destructive Behavior

Well, I recently shared w/a friend of mine a confession of something I did, putting a (minor, I hope) ding into a perfectly-good friendship.

Both the confession and the thing confessed shouldn't have been done. (No, I'm not sharing them w/you, dear readers.)

Why do we do these things?

Because we can. Sometimes we feel the need to push the envelope. Do we ever learn not to? Speaking for myself: apparently not.

So, here I am, by myself for the first time in a long time (family is on a road trip w/out me), and what do I do? Waste time on this thing I shouldn't have, which gained me nothing and cost me something.

At least it's out of my system, now. And early on this week, too, which is good.

2 comments:

Brown Dwarf said...

Oh, okay, some hints of what I'm thinking of:

2 Pet 1:5-11:

5 For this very reason, you must make every effort to support your faith with goodness, and goodness with knowledge, 6 and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with endurance, and endurance with godliness, 7 and godliness with mutual F5 affection, and mutual F6 affection with love. 8 For if these things are yours and are increasing among you, they keep you from being ineffective and unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9 For anyone who lacks these things is nearsighted and blind, and is forgetful of the cleansing of past sins. 10 Therefore, brothers and sisters, F7 be all the more eager to confirm your call and election, for if you do this, you will never stumble. 11 For in this way, entry into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will be richly provided for you.

2 Pet 2:20:

20 For if, after they have escaped the defilements of the world through the knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, they are again entangled in them and overpowered, the last state has become worse for them than the first.

1 Tim 3:8

8 Deacons likewise must be serious, not double-tongued, not indulging in much wine, not greedy for money; 9 they must hold fast to the mystery of the faith with a clear conscience.

Brown Dwarf said...

:-D

Yeah, bible verses require a lot of context. Those particular verses above were sort of for me, to remind me of my own standards.

And, since I'm being all KR1PTIC and all, I won't go into detail. Sorry. :(

Basically, these verses (or similar ones from the same books -- I had to sort of go hunting for them and I'm not 100% sure I got the right ones) had an effect on me a couple of years ago, and caused me to take an action of which I am proud. (Ask me offline. :) ) They are also "one-way" sorts of verses, meaning they remind me that, once I've stepped up, my actions aren't just one-time things, they're the first step of a committed life. The commitment is: Be Good and Stay Good.

Wow, that sounds so schlocky. Now I know why some folks sound so stupid; here I am saying similar stuff. Maybe "Be Good" is the ideal and "Be Constantly (Monotonically) Improving" is a more realistic goal/commitment.

I read the "deacons" thing as "church leaders." Most folks take that to mean ordained clergy, which I don't see myself ever being, but I could someday be a lay leader. There are certainly enough of them (lay leaders) I see as examples.