Friday, March 31, 2006

Existential Dilemmas: Why Are We Here?

I have two friends w/questions about their purpose in life rattling around in their heads. Maybe more.

And I say, "we're here to make the world a better place."

It's about that simple, in my opinion. Well, let me not give in to my cowardice. I'll add a little extra stinger: "...under the direction of the Supreme Being that started this whole 'universe' thing running in the first place."

How can I possibly imagine I can get away w/saying something like that and not be considered a religious-right conservative?
(And, I'm probably misusing the word "dilemma", which is supposed to mean a person is torn between two choices. What two choices, in this case? Is "quandry" a better word?)
Well, if we're just here on our own, what's the point? To have fun, right? To live a pleasant life before we wink out. How do we define pleasure? (10,000 Philosophy majors are now waiting for me to fall on my face.)
  • Getting drunk, having sex, eating good food. Simple.

  • Making other people happy. We get that vicarious glow from giving people Christmas holiday presents, teaching them to read, curing them of their heroin addictions.

  • Leaving something behind us when we die. A well-adjusted child. A bridge. A university endowment. A law with our name on it. A cured, grateful heroin addict.

  • True Love, which is probably All of the Above.
At some point, these things start to pale, I think. You've eaten at all the nice restaurants in town. Even the good ones in some other city serve... food. Grains, vegetables, sugary syrups, funky spices, cheesy sauces, cows, fish, alligators.

You no longer derive satisfaction from teaching people to read. Or maybe, you don't have the energy after spending all day dealing w/consumers at the retail level, or your myopic boss who doesn't see the long-term implications of his request(s).

Your child has told you in no uncertain terms that s/he wants absolutely no part of your antiquated values system (what value system is that?).

Your dream of building a gleaming chrome-plated bridge across the bay just got shot down for the last time, and now you know it'll never happen because it took 12 years to get to this point and you just don't have it in you for another 12-year try.

Your true love just walked out the door.

There's nothing inside you; it's all relative and the point of reference has disappeared.

Your point of reference has to be outside of yourself. Your obligation must be to something not relative to yourself.

There is a Prime Mover. (I have an elegant proof for that assertion, but this blog page is too small for it.) We have a calling. That isn't changed by any difficulties you find yourself going through. It's as simple as that.

You can have difficulties meeting your calling, and be forgiven for that, but the calling remains.

(And, just to avoid being hypocritical: I haven't stepped up and really fulfilled my calling yet, either. I'm hoping I'm going to get a few more years before that final Exit Interview, but there's no telling, really.)

Comments? (I think I do better in dialog than monologue.)

We All Want the Same Things, We're So Predictable

(Wherein I claim that blogging is a social activity, but I use more words than this to do it.)

See also: http://vapidhipsters.blogspot.com/2004/09/friendly-advice-tip-3.html (I hope she doesn't take that blog down; otherwise all my links are going to be shot.)

What do we want?
  • Contact w/others. Hence all the vapid blog postings and email list chatter.

  • Validation.
So, which is better? An empty blog containing shouts out to my family and friends, or an earnest, pedantic blog containing my not-quite-worth-reading deep-ish thoughts? Hmm, decisions, decisions. (Both are requests for contact and validation, I think.)

So, we dress funny, act funny, act in a way that we think other people will like, and generally wind up all wanting the same thing.

Or we dress and act normal (stop rolling your eyes and pretending that normal is boring or "normal" is a relative concept).

Ok, maybe we're not all the same. How are we different? Only in the ways we seek contact/validation. Some of us are crass and stupid-sounding. Maybe we're too young, or we're just looking for a hook-up. I think that's about it, though.

So, are we pathetic? Not at all. We're social creatures.

Ok, time to stop, I think I'm pushing this point pretty hard.

A Commandment




I guess this is another part of who I am.


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Where've I Been?

Whee!



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create your own personalized map of the USA

I s'pose I could do one for Canadian provinces and different countries, but I'm not really a jet-setter.

Here's why Nebraska, by the way: sod houses. And all that that implies. Moving west to get away and get rich. Land rushes. Cold winters. What were these people moving away from that made this look like a better alternative? Or were they deluded? And, if deluded, what were their thoughts two years later? ("This was a huge mistake. I wonder if I can move back in w/Mom & Pop. No, this is better than that.")

No doubt you can research all this online w/out actually needing to travel to Nebraska, but wouldn't you like to stand on a plain and feel the wind (mmmm.... prairie schooners....) and cast your mind back?

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Takes Self Too Seriously

So what? (And what brought this on?)

I've been reading Monoblogue. It's really good. Ok, so she's had training and some sort of experience and I haven't, but still, it seems really good. Real, so to speak.

And I think, "I used to be interesting. Maybe not as interesting as that, but more interesting than I am now." And I think, "I know! I'll update my profile! That'll fix everything!"

But I'm sorta stuck. Here it is now:

moderate-to-liberal (actually, more of a passionate moderate), going through a divorce, Rip van Winkle coming out of a 12-year nap. Not very cool, but trying not to care what other people think.
So, what can I add, restricting myself to 1200 characters?

How about:

Formerly a sci-fi RPG'er and reader of sci-fi, no time now. Father of two wonderful little boys, elementary-school aged. One is a total live wire, constantly getting in trouble, the other is more quiet but every bit as troublesome. And both are, on occasion, truly wonderful, which makes up for everything.

AT thru-hiker (1984). My one claim to fame, now long in my past.

Physics major at a good liberal arts college. Shoulda seized more opportunities than I did. Probably wouldn't get accepted if I applied today.

Brown dwarf. Coulda been a star, but am now just giving warmth to two small satellites. If they would only orbit me. [Update, 29 Sep 2007 -- I have moved out of our house and now have the kids with me every other week, so, at least part of the time, my two small satellites do orbit me. Sorta.]

Unhappy in my job, but not getting off my ass and finding a better one. (I have a good excuse for the moment.)

Inexplicably cheerful, sometimes. Explicably grateful for all that I have, considering how little I deserve it compared to other unfortunates in this world. Former victim of bullies for years in public school, which makes my inexplicable cheerfulness even more inexplicable. Maybe I'm just insane.

Intensely wondering what makes this world go 'round. Convinced there's Something Important I Just Haven't Learned About Yet.

Grinding through life w/out expertise, and making mistakes along the way. Not a Beautiful Person. Learning to pick up the pieces (I hope). Becoming suspicious that maybe others don't know what they're doing, either.

Oh, what else?

Somewhat of a zelig. See? Alison's rubbed off on me. Stay tuned, maybe I'll read somebody else's blog next month and develop a different style.

..............

Ok, well, this is crap, but I'll post it anyway. So there.

Sad Little Cartoon

From http://www.cheston.com/pbf/ (Perry Bible Fellowship, if the link ever moves.)

Reader, beware. :)

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Satan As Personified Deity

See 1 Peter 5:8--9.

There's a lot of this sort of thing in the Bible: references to Satan as a "he". I don't buy it. (Yet.)

I'm not talking about the gender issue, I'm talking about the anthropomorphization issue (or personification, if you prefer).

Gen 8:20--22: "the inclination of the human heart is evil from youth". Not Satan. There is no "devil made me do it" excuse, it's all you.

This is important to me. Not because I'm all hellfire and brimstone, but because the death of Jesus is for our sins, not the sins of Satan. Our daily struggle is with ourselves, not some external evil. I just don't believe in an external evil being with "his" own free will and intention, a negative mirror of God. Sorry.

So, what's with all these passages in the bible? "Get thee behind me, Satan" and all that? Funny you should ask. That particular passage is referring to Peter. Is Peter Satan? No, of course not, it's allegory.

Here's another fun one: Luke 4:1-13. (I really love that part about "until an opportune time". Cue faint Darth Vader music in the background.) I'm gonna say that's all allegory. Or something along those lines.

I believe bad things in the world come from three different sources, basically:
  • Chaos. God created "the world" (our measurable universe) from chaos. I think he left a little bit around. Psalm 104:19-30. Job 41:1-10. "Leviathan" is an ancient Babylonian myth component, and it represents elemental chaos, according to the books I have (Oxford annotated bible, Oxford Commentary.)

  • The laws of the universe he created. Cosmic radiation shoots through us all. Some of us get cancer. Some of us get cancer very young and die in pain while our parents grieve. It is a sad, sad thing. I don't rule out the possibility of spectacular miracles, but I think God is withholding spectacular miracles in the 21st century. Sorry, no cures from cancer that are undeniably miraculous. Suppose every child under the age of 12 diagnosed w/cancer didn't actually die? Maybe 12 is still too young. How about everybody under the age of, say, 40? Is that too old? What's enough to have lived a full, good life? 25? Pick a number. Suppose nobody under that age diagnosed w/cancer actually died. Suppose no one suffered. That would be a miracle, yes? That would prove God's existence, yes? I'm thinking... maybe God wants us to believe without proof. So... no miracles. Occasional tragedy. It totally sucks, I know, and it makes us question the benevolence of God. I got no easy answer there. (Somebody else tried.)

  • The evil that lurks in our own hearts. God gave us the gift of free will. We sometimes use our free will to do horrible things to our neighbors. That's not Satan, that's us. The Holocaust was our fault. Catholics and Protestants drowning each other in 17th-century France was our fault. The Spanish Inquisition and the Crusades were our fault. What's happening in North Korea is human action, not some malevolent, intentional deity.
We can say the forces of entropy and chaos are always "trying" to get into our lives, just like rainwater is "trying" to get into our houses, and our cars are "trying" to breakdown. But we don't think rain is a person, nor are there little imps with hammers inside our cars, taking our water pumps apart. (Unless you're watching a Bugs Bunny cartoon.)

We can say our animal instincts are "trying" to trick us, but those instincts are not themselves conscious, intentional beings.

Is Luck a lady? Is it really not nice to fool Mother Nature? Does the Sandman put you to sleep? Is Satan tempting you?

the PUBLIC FORUM - Peter Gomes

Nice.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Jews For Jesus Explain the Passover Seder

I went to a presentation on the Passover seder by these Jews for Jesus folks tonight. The format was a lecture by a visiting Jews for Jesus missionary in a church sanctuary.

A Passover seder is a meal, in imitation of the meal eaten just before the first Passover in Exodus, when God slew the Egyptians' firstborn sons. It is a remembrance of God's mighty act in saving the Israelites from Egypt. ["Mighty act" isn't my phrase, but it's a common phrase in use, and does sound good. Draw out the "m": "mmmighty act!"] It's a big deal. Jews eat special food and sit in a special posture (slouching, basically, in celebration of freedom: "we don't have to sit upright anymore!"). The food is: greens (e.g., parsley), salt water (tears), a kind of chunky applesauce w/cinnamon and nuts (mortar for bricks w/out straw, a hard task set by the Egyptians for the Hebrews to perform), horseradish (to make you suffer and cry, as the Hebrews in Egypt did), a roasted lamb shin bone (I forget the significance of that, exactly) and a roasted egg (a medieval invention, and I sort of forget the significance of that, too). In addition to being a meal, it is a retelling of the Exodus story for children, and it is intended to be a fun, participatory, educational exercise for children, in addition to being a solemn occasion for remembrance. Traditionally, four glasses of wine are consumed by each person. And there's some singing. So, it's basically a good time.

Here's some stuff from jewfaq.org (I skipped a lot):
A vegetable (usually parsley) is dipped in salt water and eaten. The vegetable symbolizes the lowly origins of the Jewish people; the salt water symbolizes the tears shed as a result of our slavery.

A blessing is recited over a bitter vegetable (usually raw horseradish; sometimes romaine lettuce), and it is eaten. This symbolizes the bitterness of slavery. The maror is dipped charoset, a mixture of apples, nuts, cinnamon and wine, which symbolizes the mortar used by the Jews in building during their slavery.

The third cup of wine is poured, and birkat ha-mazon (grace after meals) is recited. This is similar to the grace that would be said on any Shabbat. At the end, a blessing is said over the third cup and it is drunk. The fourth cup is poured, including a cup set aside for the prophet Elijah, who is supposed to herald the Messiah, and is supposed to come on Pesach to do this. The door is opened for a while at this point (supposedly for Elijah, but historically because Jews were accused of nonsense like putting the blood of Christian babies in matzah, and we wanted to show our Christian neighbors that we weren't doing anything unseemly).

A simple statement that the seder has been completed, with a wish that next year, we may celebrate Pesach in Jerusalem (i.e., that the Messiah will come within the next year). [If we equate this w/the Second Coming, I could be up for that, but, please, not before I get my life straightened out.] This is followed by various hymns and stories.
I can see why many Jews are so upset about these folks. The lecturer was pretty fast and loose w/the seder, drawing parallels that I don't think were intended by the originators of the seder, nor valid.

For example:
  • The matzoh is striped and pierced like Jesus was.

  • When you go to the door to open it for Elijah, you won't find him there, because Jesus is already in the room.

  • The afikomen, the "piece that comes later," represents Jesus.

  • If we were to talk to Moses today, he'd say the greatest miracle God worked was not the exodus, but the raising of "the prophet" described in Deut. 18:18.
I can't remember all the rest.

It's not really Jews for Jesus, it's more like Converted Jews for Jesus. Maybe that's too fine a point.

According to Peter Gomes's book, The Good Book, Paul declares that the Jews already have the promise, and that, for them, the Torah is the equivalent of the Cross for Christians. Meaning, the Torah is the instrument of God's salvation for them; by following it, they are fulfilling their side of the covenant, and pleasing God. Or something like that; I'm sort of making this up.

Take a look at Romans 11. Verse 1: "I ask, then, has God rejected his people? By no means!" Verse 11: "So I ask, have they stumbled so as to fall? By no means! " And, finally, my favorite, vv. 13--36, the wild olive branch [my notes are in square brackets]:
Now I am speaking to you Gentiles. Inasmuch then as I am an apostle to the Gentiles, I glorify my ministry in order to make my own people jealous, and thus save some of them. For if their rejection is the reconciliation of the world, what will their acceptance be but life from the dead! If the part of the dough offered as first fruits is holy, then the whole batch is holy; and if the root is holy, then the branches also are holy. But if some of the branches [some Jews] were broken off, and you [Gentiles], a wild olive shoot, were grafted in their place to share the rich root of the olive tree, do not boast over the branches. If you do boast, remember that it is not you that support the root, but the root that supports you. You will say, "Branches were broken off so that I might be grafted in." That is true. They were broken off because of their unbelief, but you stand only through faith. So do not become proud, but stand in awe. For if God did not spare the natural branches, perhaps he will not spare you. Note then the kindness and the severity of God: severity toward those who have fallen, but God's kindness toward you, provided you continue in his kindness; otherwise you also will be cut off. And even those of Israel, if they do not persist in unbelief, will be grafted in, for God has the power to graft them in again. For if you have been cut from what is by nature a wild olive tree and grafted, contrary to nature, into a cultivated olive tree, how much more will these natural branches be grafted back into their own olive tree.

So that you may not claim to be wiser than you are, brothers and sisters, I want you to understand this mystery: a hardening has come upon part of Israel, until the full number of the Gentiles has come in. And so all Israel will be saved; as it is written, "Out of Zion will come the Deliverer; he will banish ungodliness from Jacob." ["Jacob" is sort of a synonym for Israel.] "And this is my covenant with them, when I take away their sins." As regards the gospel they are enemies of God for your sake; but as regards election [i.e., God's choice of them] they are beloved, for the sake of their ancestors [i.e., because of the promise God made to their ancestors]; for the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable. Just as you were once disobedient to God but have now received mercy because of their disobedience, so they have now been disobedient in order that, by the mercy shown to you, they too may now receive mercy. For God has imprisoned all in disobedience so that he may be merciful to all.

O the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways! "For who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?" "Or who has given a gift to him, to receive a gift in return?" For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be the glory forever. Amen.
Hmm, i got carried away with the cut-and-paste, I guess.

So, anyway, I don't feel that I really learned much about the Jewish seder, because the lecturer was moving pretty fast and seemed to be more interested in propagandizing. However, I did get exposed to how Jews for Jesus works, and I can't say I'm real impressed.

I would really like to know more about Judaism before I'm willing to jump up and say they need to accept Jesus as the Messiah to keep from going to hell. And even then, I might be willing to say we can't possibly know their ultimate destination, whether they accept Jesus or not, "for the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable."

Jews for Jesus seems to be concentrating some of their energy on proselytizing Russian Jews in Moscow, many of whom are having crises of faith (apparently). I'd be less aggressive in proselytizing; maybe I wouldn't make a good missionary. Conversion on the basis of deception is bad (isn't that what the snake did to Adam and Eve?); I'd rather a person in doubt examine his/her own faith more closely before deciding to abandon it.

I guess I'm always going to come back to some statement like the following, until convinced otherwise: God presents himself (hirself?) in many guises to the people of the earth. As long as they follow Jesus's teaching of radical, aggressive compassion, they are doing God's bidding and are blessed by him, like the first son in the parable of the man with two sons and a vineyard (Matthew 21:28--32).

(Hmm. "Radical, aggressive compassion." I should really get crackin' on that.)

Christians Who Quote Revelations Too Much

Well, here I sit, in the middle of a divorce.

I'm also taking a bible study class (Disciple) at a local church. It's a good class, but the people in it are a little more conservative than I would normally gravitate to.

We take each others' prayer requests. This was a little offputting to me at first. I was surprised at the idea of offering up requests to God as if he would simply fulfill them. ("Oh, Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz? My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends."). So, I listened to others' concerns and even prayed for them. Praying was something alien to me; I had been out of the church for about 25 years, basically because, as a teenager, I wasn't satisfied w/what I was getting in church (platitudes, mostly, while evil flourished in the world).

But, I'm developing, changing, learning, growing. God may not directly answer prayers, but he hears them. (Why he hears them but doesn't answer them the way we want is probably another blog topic. Not afraid of big topics, am I?) So, after a couple of years and some consideration, I decide to offer my own prayer request to the group.

I tell them I'm getting a divorce, my lawyer will write a letter to my wife that she's not expecting and I'd like their prayers.

Now, I, when presented with this sort of spectacular statement, would (I hope) probe a little bit more. What's the marriage like? Is this a temporary wish for a divorce? Does the wife really not know what's coming, or has she had some sort of indication?

I don't recall any of those sorts of questions being asked. What I do remember is getting quoted at from the book of Revelations: "even cowards are for the lake of fire." And that's the exact phrase the guy used: "for the lake of fire." (Rev. 21:8).

[dramatic pause, string of expletives]

What the heck does Revelation have to do w/divorce? And am I being called a coward for having this letter delivered unexpectedly from my lawyer to my wife? Did they ask about the situation or just jump to conclusions? Yes, I told my wife I wanted a divorce. Yes, we had tried counselling, w/out success. Yes, she was basically ignoring me.

What is it w/Christians that define themselves by this one book? (Also the book of John, apparently.) Everything is judgement and end times with these people. They have the smug satisfaction that the bad people will get theirs, and the good people (these Christians) will get to watch. Of course, they'll be sorry for the sinners (because they hate the sin, not the sinner), but they'll still have that little frisson of schadenfreude.

There are so many other things in the bible by which to define yourself:
  • A man had two sons. He asked them to work in his vineyard. The first said yes, but he didn't. The second said no, but later changed his mind and did. Which was the better son?

  • After you've worked in your master's field all day and you've both come to his house at the end of the day, does he say, "sit and dine w/me, thou good and faithful servant"? No, he asks you to fix him dinner. [Meaning, you don't do good works for a reward. You do them because you're obligated to.]

  • "All things are permitted, but not all things are beneficial."
And on and on and on. Why do we need to focus on burning lakes of sulfur and great red dragons and 144,000 saints?

There are times/places when Revelations is relevant. I'm thinking of the church in North Korea, a persecuted church. (Revelations was written for the persecuted church.)

But in a comfortable, industrialized nation? No. I think the book of Amos is much more appropriate for our focus. Or Romans, maybe.

Self-Destructive Behavior

Well, I recently shared w/a friend of mine a confession of something I did, putting a (minor, I hope) ding into a perfectly-good friendship.

Both the confession and the thing confessed shouldn't have been done. (No, I'm not sharing them w/you, dear readers.)

Why do we do these things?

Because we can. Sometimes we feel the need to push the envelope. Do we ever learn not to? Speaking for myself: apparently not.

So, here I am, by myself for the first time in a long time (family is on a road trip w/out me), and what do I do? Waste time on this thing I shouldn't have, which gained me nothing and cost me something.

At least it's out of my system, now. And early on this week, too, which is good.

Friday, March 24, 2006

The Name of this Blog is a Mistake!

(King of Pain lyrics)

I was trying for something other than what I got. No wonder the name of this blog was available! :)

Oh, well, it still works. I don't want to be the "King of Rain" anyway.

There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop

I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a little black spot on the sun today
That's my soul up there
It's the same old thing as yesterday
That's my soul up there
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
That's my soul up there
There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop
That's my soul up there
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall
That's my soul up there
There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall
That's my soul up there
There's a blue whale beached by a springtime's ebb
That's my soul up there
There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web
That's my soul up there
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out
There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt
There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed
There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread
King of pain

There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack
That's my soul up there
There's a black-winged gull with a broken back
That's my soul up there
There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday

I have stood here before in the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I always thought you could end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
King of pain
King of pain
King of pain
I'll always be king of pain

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Some lovely images I found





I found these images on another site (Yahoo 360), and I'm taking the liberty of lifting them. I looked pretty hard for something else (and I'll probably still look), but these are really nice images.

Sadly, Blogger won't let me upload them full size, so I'm going to have to be even more rude and use them directly off the Yahoo site. At least they have the bandwidth for it, since they're being used for blogs on that site.

Looking for sad pictures makes me sad :)

Been browsing for good pix to use for a sad rain theme.

Now I'm sad.

Which makes me smile in amusement at myself. :)

flickr.com search terms were "rain sad umbrella"

Found:
And there's always http://www.deviantart.com/

Business Ethics in the Bible

Gen. 27--30: So, after cheating his brother Esau out of his birthright, Jacob goes to Haran (Paddan-aram in Gen. 28 -- is that the same?) and spends a little time w/his uncle Laban.

Gen. 28:20--22 (NRSV, quoted via http://crosswalk.com):
20 Then Jacob made a vow, saying, "If God will be with me, and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat and clothing to wear, 21 so that I come again to my father's house in peace, then the Lord shall be my God, 22 and this stone, which I have set up for a pillar, shall be God's house; and of all that you give me I will surely give one-tenth to you."

Uncle Laban cheats Jacob by giving him his daughter Leah in return for seven years' service (Jacob wanted and "contracted for" Rachel). So, Jacob has to work seven MORE years to get Rachel. Then, Laban cheats him again by agreeing to give him all the black and speckled sheeps from his (Laban's flock), but Laban secretly takes them out before Jacob gets a chance to inspect them, so Jacob must stay longer and use a trick to get the flocks to produce speckled sheep. Then, he uses the same trick to make his sheep stronger than Laban's.

Gen. 30:37--43:

37 Then Jacob took fresh rods of poplar and almond and plane, and peeled white streaks in them, exposing the white of the rods. 38 He set the rods that he had peeled in front of the flocks in the troughs, that is, the watering places, where the flocks came to drink. And since they bred when they came to drink, 39 the flocks bred in front of the rods, and so the flocks produced young that were striped, speckled, and spotted. 40 Jacob separated the lambs, and set the faces of the flocks toward the striped and the completely black animals in the flock of Laban; and he put his own droves apart, and did not put them with Laban's flock. 41 Whenever the stronger of the flock were breeding, Jacob laid the rods in the troughs before the eyes of the flock, that they might breed among the rods, 42 but for the feebler of the flock he did not lay them there; so the feebler were Laban's, and the stronger Jacob's. 43 Thus the man grew exceedingly rich, and had large flocks, and male and female slaves, and camels and donkeys.

So, this is the man blessed by God?

Is this behavior considered good?

Is this good only because his uncle Laban is a worse cheater, and this is what Jacob must do to get ahead? In a world of sharp practices, the Godly man must have sharper practices in order to give 10% to God?

What does that say about people who advance their careers by golfing w/the right people? Is that The Way? Forget technical expertise, the bible says you need to cheat?

What about "do not be conformed to this world" (Rom. 12:2)? Is that in regards to something else (Christian/Jewish relations, sexual morality), and therefore not relevant?

Why is fairness emphasized so strongly in our upbringing, if it only interferes w/our ability to cheat each other? Is the child whose parents emphasize "sustainable cheating" at an advantage? ("Sustainable cheating" is like "sustainable forestry" -- you cheat in such a way that you can do it all your life, rather than poisoning your relationships w/people beyond repair or using up friends faster than you can make new ones.)

More specifically, is the Bible telling me I should really forget about knowing everything there is to know about enterprise Java development (or otherwise improving my mad technical skillz), and instead just concentrate on office politics?

Hmmm???

Plan ahead, plan ahead

Wife went out this evening, from 6:30 pm to 11:30 pm.

I had planned to go out and have coffee w/a friend.

Scratch that plan. (I'm not a bad enough dad to take off and leave the kids at home by themselves.)

Moral of the story: reserve the time w/the wife ahead of time.

She could have asked.

oh well.

Meantime, my lawyer seems to have lost my financial info I dropped off last summer. Great. I seem to have also lost it, somehow, inexplicably. I hope it's in my office somewhere. :(

Otherwise, i have to frikkin reconstruct it.

Bible Study Elective in GA High Schools

So, Georgia proposes to allow bible study as an elective in public high schools.

Supposedly, no proselytizing/indoctrination will occur, it'll simply be a study of a body of literature that has affected western thought.

In theory, sounds good.

Risks:
  • Untrained teachers slip into indoctrination.
  • Students get pressured to take this "elective".
  • Conservative parents get upset that it isn't indoctrination (in which case, why aren't their kids going to Sunday school?).
I wonder if courses in Torah and Talmud will also be offered.

Or the writings of Asian ancients like Lao Tzu or Confucius.

Well, I guess I'm for it, basically.

Good movie: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Saw this movie for the 2nd time over the weekend. Great flick for somebody in my situation: leaving a bad marriage, a little burned out on "true love". It's kind of confusing, though, like Memento.

My Pictures

Well, in lieu of a better picture of me....